I wanted to use the name that was relating to Jack and Sally in the nightmare before christmas but everything even semi related to that is taken, surprisingly….not.

Anyway, God knows what my email address and password are to this account to my real tumblr but I guess thats a good thing so seriously no one can find me here. How about this is my new little getaway, my new bestfriend, my new escape.

Sometimes I just want to get away and quit for a little bit. I always say that I want to fast forward a few years, if only that was possible. I am ready to start a new life. Lets entitle this blog the first day of my life, referring to the song by Bright Eyes.

It seems like every single time that I blog it is because he is on my mind. He is to not be named in this new blog. There are a lot of new things in my life right now. Changes. Hopefully for the better and hopefully I can stick to them. Because he is right, I make promises I cant keep. I know the person I need to be. I wish someone could tell me why it seems this dream of mine is an impossibility. But impossible is nothing, too bad this little feat of mine that I am so incapable of is far from impossible. The things that I stress out about are things that normal people wouldnt get phased by. Oh well, tis life I guess.

2010. What does this year mean to me? Its a year of new beginings. A year of possibilities, hopefully a year of change. I guess I should write down what my new years resolutions are somewhere sooo……here it goes.

1. To be honest. With everyone. About everything. 2. To be faithful, in every single way. 3. To move away from Orlando, never back to Gainesville, but where I want to be. That is not something that I have figured out yet but hopefully these little life changes that I hope to bring upon myself this year will grant me some guidence inside myself so I can see what I want and what is best for me. Im not your little follower, dont think for one second that you are my life. 4. To meet new people that are good influences on my life. I seem to choose bad people to be friends with…. let me change that, I just choose not to live my life above the influence of others. So that will be my resolution number five. 5. Live my life. For me. Not for anyone else. This is my life, not anyone elses.

TO BE CONTINUED. (I have a lot more to say but this is not an appropriate time or place) JAX